Tuesday, January 10, 2012 10:54 PM
H e a r t f e l t w o r d s ♥ .
Well, taking o-level results, should be something we are awaiting for. It's something tht we're anxious for. But somehow, upon taking the results, i'm not sure whether i should feel happy a not. Some are great, really, they are. But some, they are not. Phoning to my mum about the results in the school hall, i guess i really cried very hard. Thinking back about it, it's really quite a bit of paisehh. But i guess, this is part of an experience to me. A lesson to me. I have to learn right? In life, we won't know wht will happen next. Till we get an experience, and we learn from it, we will make a better choice.
Since the time i take my results till now, it's just a few hours, and I did a lot of thinking.
And somehow, it felt as though many things had happened recently.
And somehow, it felt as though many days hv passed. But actually, it's just a few hours.
These few hours makes up a day more. It's quite a lot though. But, i just don't like this feeling.
Reflecting and reflecting. I've been reflecting just nw. Did I really tried my best? Well, ppl did see me try my best. But in my heart, did I really try my best? Did I? Can anyone just tell me? Or probably there's way better?
Making choices is always somehow the most troubled thing I've always get. Truthfully, I really hate making choices. But somehow, it's a MUST. A must to make choices. And a choice, tht involves my future. Right now, thinking about future, wht i thought is: Future.. is it still far away?
Well, it can seem really far away. But, it's just a small distance away from us. Now i know why at the age of sixteen is called teenager alr. We are not children anymore. We hv to make choices by ourselves, independently.
Making these 12 choices for JAE is something tht really requires a lot of thinking. Currently, the course I'm most interested in is Perfumery and Cosmetic Science. But I hv been hesitating.
Is it something tht I'm really interested? Will I dislike the course after taking it? Will I regret? If I don't score well, I can't get a good job. <--Tht's wht many ppl told me. Can I do well?
PLUS. I still hv to think about my cca. I still hv to think about ENGLISH!
I guessed I'm retaking english again and this time, with tuition.
Can I manage?
CCA, English, my course.
I hv to be really hardworking.
I guess I really need some ppl to talk to me noww. Someone, tht really understand me.
Typing this post, it's all wht I'm feeling currently.
I cried while typing this. I guessed this really helps me to feel better.
At least, there's a place for me to share..
